To New Beginnings!

That shit is so played out.

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My new year is beginning quiteee beautifullly. When you forcibly shut one door, it seems like at least two more open.

So far, between 12/31/09 - 1/1/10 I havee..

• Figured out everyone's place in my life.
  
• Put people on blast.
  
• Tied up loose ends.
  
• Watched Vertigo! (amazing movie)
  

Before the new year started, I realized that karma was coming down and hitting people, almost as if karma understood that a new decade was coming, and decided to catch up. I noticed that everyone around me was feeling karma around them, so I knew what was coming to me was inevitable.

However, I think I overcame whatever karma threw at me. I stopped being a little bitch, maintained my thoughts, and fought through any lingering feelings, and did what needed to be done. In this case, I needed to burn bracelets, notes, and even a bear (as seen above) from her. I burned my thumbs in the process, but I felt the whole thing was symbolic. I just burned parts of each bracelet and note, so it cannot be tied together. I then put all of it in a glass filled with water on top of my tv, just as that reminder.

But I think 'oh-ten' has great things in store for me. The people I'm surrounding myself with are people I feel I can irrevocably trust, and grow from, and that's what I need.


** new thing maybe? Instead of song lyrics -- photos? It's just a thought. First one is mother and I. Second is of my older brother and I. How is it that he's five years older then me, and still I look so much older?